Four short months later, however, my next and most profound "transition" was revealed. I was diagnosed with breast cancer (DCIS and Invasive for those of you who can relate). Chemotherapy, bilateral mastectomy and radiation were prescribed and I was forced to put life on hold while I navigated a difficult year and a half of doctor appointments, treatments and surgeries. Through it all, I managed to keep some weight on my youngster's back for his good but it's what he did for me that I can't repay. Zander was always out there looking for my company (and a cookie) when I felt up to a visit, propping me up when I wilted under the weight of the "transition," and quietly waiting for me to emerge a stronger woman and better human being.
Cancer has a way of defining us as it proves how strong we can be while at the same time making our spirits more porous and sympathetic. I face post-treatment scans soon, which will determine where we go from here medically. But whatever "transitions" my future holds, the horses will remain in my life and make them worth living through.
FEI may still elude me, but, the divine relationships I have enjoyed with my equine partners have become even more precious than any goal I might reach. I thank God everyday for the horses. I'm confident he is saving the best "transition" for last.
